Well, now you know.
I wasn’t really sure how you were going to react, haha.
As I told you, I was quite apprehensive.
But yeah, there was something that just told me to say that.
I honestly don’t know what it was.
Something told me that I should support you as much as I can.
That I should do more than just leave small hints and actually take action.
Something told me that if I were to care, to support, and to just be there, it would be worth the effort. That it wont be a one sided thing. That I’ll be making a difference.
I just don’t know how to initiate that. I would like to help, but it’s like you don’t require help, as if you were independent, and I have no problem with that, it’s just that I’ll have to find a way to help you another way, rather than the conventional way. And that if I do those things, to care, to support, and to just be there…you will return them at an equal amount, which anyone has yet to do.
I mean I know you’re not perfect.. I know that sometimes you don’t try your best, that some days you just don’t feel like putting in effort. I just wanna be there to give you that little push so you can be on your way. It hurts me to see you…well..hurt. That there’s still something in your life that’s on the back of your head, possibly 24/7, that distracts you. That prevents you from having a good time, or doing your work thoroughly. That in the end, it takes away from your potential. And that’s what I want to get rid of, or at least help on.
It’s funny. At this short amount of time, you’ve done a handful.
You’ve influenced me a little, believe it or not.
Less partying, more bookwork.
More reading books than watching tv. (You might have a clue as to which book I’ve started reading.)
More time trying to figure out how to help you rather than to help myself.
That your smile is something worth fighting for.
That’s saying a lot, I know.
I just don’t know how else to put it.