High school me hasn’t changed one bit, eh?

My goodness, this was like….12th grade-ish.

“Sometimes it’s just perfect how two human beings cope with each other. How they are able to cooperate and live a life of happiness.
Sure, there are times of distress and feeling of uncomfort, though those are passed by how? Cooperating with each other. Two humans are able to meet up, grow together, share experiences together, build a relationship together, even have a kid and raise it till they’re old enough to let them go.

Of course there are some who just can’t get together, or work with each other, or  just can’t cooperate with each other present.

I had feelings for her.

I liked her a lot, but my guess that it was only a “high school crush”

I didn’t know her in high school, how’s that possible? Meh.

Regardless, I was hooked to her.

I’d visit her every now and then, or when she wanted me to

I did what she always wanted me to do.

I tried to make her happy.

In the end, I guess it wasn’t meant to be.

She was sweet, she was a person you could trust.

Someone you can love. (But Someone I couldn’t fall in love with.)

And I did. (at least I think I did.)

We had our own separate motives and intentions that we simply could not have worked efficiently with or around each other.

We decided it was best to leave it as is, or even forget hope of any contact ever again.

Sometimes it’s just like that.”

From all the things that I could have said such as “clingy, needy, inconsistent,” I tried to bring out the best which I think was noble. But really, I should have saved my breath. No one gives a fuck if you’re noble. No one gives two shits if you had anything good to say about your ex. Sure, you’ll be looked up to by some, but really, not all outside opinions (By outside I mean foreign shit that’s not thought by your brain but given by others) are supposed to be taken consideration and that’s still what I live by.

I feel the need to change my viewpoint and philosophy but since I’m not feeling the urge nor have the time to do so, I wont until I find something really wrong about that style of thinking. Just so I can rip apart the “bad” things and ultimately follow a philosophy that’s sentimentally unique and enough to understand general situations so no quarrels can actualize itself, even if it’s there mentally.