It doesn’t feel like it.

Not one bit.

I see your car out on your driveway. That always tells me “Hey, she’s home!”

Now it’s just a blunt reminder that there will be no trace of you left.

I know that it couldn’t have been stopped, there’s no possible way it could have been.

You were just doing what you thought was right.

That airport would be the final resting place of our relationship and a start of a fresh life into something we are yet to uncover and share with each other.

Hurrying to that terminal, I knew that you just couldn’t wait to land that job.

So many things were rushing in my head. “Is this really it?” “Surely it cannot end this way” Useless questions that won’t change what I already know will happen.

As we approach the gate with a fast pace, the grip from your hand felt lighter, as if something was just barely touching the tip of my skin, and finally you slowly come to a stop, turning around.

There’s no use. I already know what you’re going to say.

I really tried to hold back the tears, but it was just too difficult.

I may not ever see you again in my life. We may not even hear from each other ever. again.

We say our good bye’s, but I really wanted to say something I know I couldn’t.

“I love you”

I never thought I would have a hard time holding it back but it was for the better. It’s so that you get a jump start with getting over it and moving on.

I watched that plane load up with all those passengers.

I watched that plane taxi to the runway.

I watched that plane get consumed by the gloomy red sky till it was nothing.

You’re gone.

I haven’t realized it until I took a few steps back from the huge window.

Nearly cried for an hour in those seats with people I didn’t know.

Driving back was really quiet.

From now on, everything will be quiet.

No laughter, no joyful screams, not even a scoff or a sigh.

I wish this never happened.

…Please be safe and never change.