Sorrow.

Something I’ve been feeling for a while.
I haven’t been fully happy.
Haven’t been been satisfied.
I’ve been having a hard time finding joy in the small things.
Every day just feels like a drag of yesterday.
Uneventful and dull.
Being livid doesn’t help, nor does being impatient.
Maybe getting a relationship will change this, but
really, I haven’t nor do I think I will fall for anyone for a while.
I’m just too irrational and too much of a people pleaser for my sake.
Hopefully school will get rid of this empty void and stall for enough time
for me to think up of a new hobby.
Being content doesn’t cut it anymore.
I need to be happy.

I’m too clueless to be such a thing.